Hale Kilinahe: The Journal

NOVEMBER 16, 1997 I met Roger Ebert the other day! Apparently, he comes here every year to check out the Hawaii Underground Film Festival, and then he stops by Tower to rent movies or whatever. He bought some Japanese animation videos. I haven't met very many celebrities, so when I do see one, I get positively giddy. I realize that they're people too; they have the same insecurities and anxieties as everyone else, but put someone famous in front of me and I turn into a twittering ninny. We also saw the Dance Hall Crashers last night. Nimitz Hall is closing for good. It was free; since I work at Tower, I can get on the guest lists to these things if I ask. It was a great show. They didn't play very many songs from their first album. I wanted to hear "Pick Up Lines". I really hope that new person starts tomorrow. This two-jobs thing is getting old fast. I can barely manage one as well as I used to, let alone two; and since I can't get out of the clerk duites, there's no time for the VA job, so nothing is getting done. I would kick ass at that job if I were allowed to do it. I can't believe the wedding is tomorrow. It's the most important day of my whole life, but somehow, I guess I don't really realize what's happening. Six months ago, I didn't know what was going to happen next--I was living with Rocky; I didn't have a job, and I certainly didn't plan on having a child. I still don't know how I can possibly manage to raise a child at this stage in my life. I'm hardly too young anymore, but I still feel like a kid just out of high school. I don't know how people do it. And now it's only two months away. Ryan doesn't seem to worry as much as I do; he doesn't express his misgivings nearly as often as I do and when I point out how young and broke we are, he offers a million reasons why it doesn't matter. I don't even have any of the stuff I need yet. < BACK | NEXT >