I had that dream again.

I was in my car, trying to get to the convention center in Waikiki.

From Belleview.

I have that dream often. In the dream, I get so frustrated because I know there must be a way; a route I'm not thinking of and if I can just figure out where I made the wrong turn, I'll get there eventually.

Yeah, after I get on the turnpike, drive to Orlando, get on the plane and grab a cab in front of the airport.

The other recurring dream I have is that I'm losing all my teeth. They just all go loose and fall out one by one. And I always figure I can hide it; smile or move my mouth in such a way that the holes won't be noticeable. That one is the most disturbing kind of dream of all for me because I always have it when something major is going on with one of the kids. It's supposed to signify loss of control or a feeling of helplessness.

And yeah, I've been feeling a little out of control.

Zac fell, smacked his head, and had to go to the hospital on Monday.

I was originally going to pretend it didn't happen. I wasn't going to write about it at all. I am so ashamed; I really am. I was hoping it was nothing. The kid hits his head at least once a month. But he hit hard. He turned blue. He fell asleep. It was the scariest fucking thing that has happened to me in my life, and that includes his surgery.

Ryan has pics in his moblog of the hospital stay (only overnight, for observation and a CAT scan), so it's out there now, so I might as well talk about it, if only to tell all of you to NEVER TURN AROUND WHEN YOUR BABY IS IN A STROLLER. Because he will stand up when you're not looking.

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Yay Sox! I don't follow baseball, but yay anyway.

Get out there and vote on Tuesday. Especially if you're a Dem living in Hawaii. Please do not allow us to go red. Thank you. Because if we go with Bush, I'm going to go postal.

Posted by: lisa at October 29, 2004 10:04 AM

Posted by: p.ueno at October 29, 2004 03:58 PM

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